This is a question which has been bothering me for the past couple of months and it is the main reason I have been so inactive on this blog (I am really sorry) but I just needed time to think about myself and who I am. This post is going to be a little explanation as to who I am aswell as allowing me to figure out some stuff out...
So my name is Verity Alicia, I am 18 and I live in England. I have medium ish brown hair and hazel eyes (but they change colour - sometimes they're brown and other times theyre hazel or brown??). I am 5'4 so I am pretty short, I wear glasses and I have tiny hands.
My favourite season is Autumn because I love watching the leaves change colour and fall from the trees, I love the fact I can drink hot drinks all the time and not feel guilty, I love wearing woolly jumpers and scarfs and cool boots, I love the feeling of wanting to stay in my warm bed forever and I love the long walks you can take in the cool autumnal air.
I spend way too much of my time sitting in coffee shops, sipping a cup of coffee and watching the world go by. I love people watching and I find it fascinating how I am part of a world full of so many different and incredible people. I love tea (especially green tea) and if I am stressed out you would probably find me reading and with a cup of tea.
I write alot. I always carry my journal around me (I have so many but my favourite is a A5 leather bound one) and I write down everything. It is a gateway to my soul and I write spontantous poetry in it or random to-do lists. I always carry my disposable camera with me because you never know when you might want to take a cool pic and my ipod because I don't know what i would do without music to get me through the day.
My favourite song ever is Anna Sun by Walk the Moon and I have seen them perform live 3 times and it is always so incredible (I recently went to see them on 20.02.16 ahh - i will be uploading pics and such later). I love all kinds of music and going to gigs is one of my favourite things to do. I love the feeling of dancing and singing (very badly) to my favourite songs along with hundreds of other people. I love small intimate venues more - in contrast to arenas - because you feel so much closer to the band/musician and its just magical.
I am someone that really struggles to trust people. To let them in and let them know me. I am someone that has dealt with difficult people which has led me to become more closed off from people than I would like to be. I do have some of the coolest and best friends I could ask for, they mean the absolute world to me and I love them so much.
So this blog post is just an explanation for my absence really. I have been discovering who I am and what I want to do with my life. I have spent the last couple of months trying to figure out who I am because I dealt with the loss of close friend and I am going through alot of life changing stuff (uni etc) so I have felt pretty overwhelmed and confused about life. Luckily, I have incredible friends and family who have been there for me every step of the way.
So back to the question I asked at the beginning....
Who Am I?
Well I am a naive, young 18 year old who wants to learn and experience so much. I am a music lover, a bad singer and terrible dancer; I always dance like no ones watching so does it even matter that I am bad if I am enjoying myself? I write down everything and I take obscure unnecessary pictures because I love to capture special moments. I cry and I laugh alot. I am a lover of travel and trains. I am a avid reader and I love my books as if they are my children. I am a person that lives in the moment. I love long walks that make me look around me at the beautiful world but I also love sleeping and hiding from the world. I love looking into the deeper meaning behind things and I am such a curious person. I am clumsy and I always fall over. I am sarcastic and I laugh at my own jokes alot. I can quote so many books and lyrics without having to think twice yet I am also so forgetful. I am Verity and I love myself. I love my imperfections and I am so grateful to have so many amazing people surrounding me with positivity.
and after alot of thinking, I guess I know what I want to do now....
- I want to be a writer, I want to publish my own book (which I am currently in the process of writing) and become as inspiring and reknown as many writers have been to me.
- I want to make a difference in the world and help those in need by donating more money and spending less on things I don't need.
- I want to go to more gigs, letting myself dance and sing until I can't go on.
- I want to travel and explore the world.
- I want to have people that love me for me, that understand my flaws and insecurities and still love me. I want people to accept my imperfections as I will accept theirs.
