Things I Love

I have alot of favourite things. I am a hoarder of feelings and emotions. I always find myself falling in love with random things that would normally never be acknowledged. I am going to try to talk through some of these since you always seem to like the posts when I talk about the things I love.

If you didn't already know, one of my favourite things to do is write. It is one of the main reasons I started this blog. I love it because it allows me to express myself. I love the feeling I get when I hold a pen in my hand and just write down all my feelings and emotions. I let myself go when I am writing and it is so freeing.

I love train journeys. I live in the middle of nowhere and I have alot of friends that live quite far away from me, so I catch trains alot to visit them. It is one of my favourite things to do as I just listen to my iPod and look out of the window on the world passing by.

I love train stations, I love the crazy busy atmosphere and when you have a spare moment whilst waiting for your next train or your friend it is amazing to just sit and people watch. Watch the people rushing and walking and getting lost and it's amazing to see so many different people all in one place.

I am terrible at photography but one of my favourite things to do is take photos with disposable cameras. I am not someone that likes taking artsy photos. I just love the uncertainty of what I have taken, since I have the worst memory. I love the excitement I feel whilst I wait for my photos to be developed. The ability they have to capture a moment of happiness or joy or sadness, is just magical. I take my disposable camera with me - everywhere - because you never know when a moment could become something beautiful.

I am a lover of books. I am a hoarder and a collector. I feel like you can never own too many and it is reflected in the state of my room. There are piles of books all over my room  since they no longer fit in my bookshelves. I love hardbacks and I love paperbacks. I love old and delicate leatherbound books. I love poetry. I love reading the words and feeling the power behind them.

I love stargazing. I was never a professional or anything but I would always sneak out of my house when I was younger, walk up the hill beside my house taking a flask of hot chocolate with me and look up at the stars. I loved looking at the stars and knowing I wasn't so alone. I love the idea of infinity, even though it is kinda terrifying. I love the idea that the world we are a part of has thousands of possibilities that are never ending.

I love gigs. I love going to small venues. I love seeing my favourite bands perform live. I love singing and dancing badly. I love moshing. I love the feeling you get when you sing the lyrics and everyone sings along. I love losing myself in the music. I love that feeling after the gig when you leave and you can't really believe how magical it was to be a part of something like that.

I love my family and my friends. I love all the old photos that are stuck around my room that remind me that I am surrounded by amazing people who love me for me. I love people that will love and care for me despite all the stupid mistakes I have made in the past, the people that understand me and laugh at my terrible jokes.

I know that it is quite easy to dawn on the negative stuff. It is so easy to let in consume you and take over your life but you can very easily look up and realise that there is alot of stuff to love out there. There is alot of magical and beautiful stuff in the world that is so underrated. Appreciate it. Love it.

Feeling Nostalgic ....

So for some weird reason I have been thinking alot about my favourite memories and I have been really nostalgic recently. My room is full of items that mean alot to me and have really random stories behind them so I thought I would share 5 of these items with you (I might make this a regular thing if people like this?):

- Item #1 : London Tube Ticket.
I got this ticket on the 11th November 2014. So this day I was in London. I had spent the previous day meeting my idols at the Mockingjay Premiere and it just has a lot of happy memories connected to this ticket. I spent the four days I was in London that November smiling so much and they were the most incredible few days of my life.

- Item #2 : Rhodes Setlist
So I think I have already mentioned this night in previous posts but for Ritchie's (my bestfriend) 18th I suprised him with a trip to Manchester. We saw Rhodes perform live and we were stood at the barrier the entire night and it was incredible. I sang and laughed alot with my bestfriend and it was nice to treat him since hes been there for me everyday for 7 years (when we first met when we were 11 and we just got each other.)  I managed to grab a setlist and I got it signed. We both got to meet Rhodes and it was amazing.

- Item #3 : Disposable Pictures
So growing up, cameras weren't as high tech as they are now so alot of my babies pictures were disposable ones and one of my favourite of these disposable pictures is placed directly above my desk so whenever I am working I can see it. It is me as a 3 year old walking with my grandpa. We are at the seaside in North Wales. I don't actually remember this since I was so young but my grandpa was such a huge part of my life growing up and I miss him alot. He taught me so much so when he passed away when I was 14 I really struggled and I lost myself for a while but I would always look at this picture and smile because without him I wouldnt be who I am today. He is one of my biggest inspirations.

- Item #4 : Team Uganda Badge
So I am pretty sure I have mentioned this trip in previous posts but I have been selected to represent North West England Guides to travel to Uganda this August. I still can't really believe it and this badge is just a reminder to me that its actually happening. I am part of a team of 9 girls who are the kindest and coolest girls, they are kinda like a family to me and I can't wait for this summer.

- Item #5: My CD player.
If you didnt know, music is one of my favourite things. I love music and I have a huge pile of CDs which I adore, although I do listen to music online alot. I love owning hard copies of the music. I actually got this CD player on my 12th birthday from my parents since my old one wasn't working and 6 years later I am still using it. It is probuably one of the most loved items in my room since whenever I am having a good or bad day I just play one of my CDs and ignore life for a couple of hours whilst I sing loudly and dance badly around my room!

Being Spontaneous

From a young age, I have always been nervous. I was nervous about people and friends and school.  I was terrified of the unknown.  The more I think about it, the more I relate my nervousness to my fear of what could go wrong. I am someone that has always feared the worst but recently I have been stepping out of my comfort zone and doing stuff i would never normally do, which is exactly what this blog post is about - being spontaneous.

So last week, my friend rang me up. We hadn't seen each other in a while and she wanted to meet up one night so we could catch up. We ended hanging out on a friday night and living in a rural town, nothing really happens where I live. Whilst we were eating pizza and chatting, we could hear a sound rehearsal happening downstairs. I ended up dragging her with me to the small gig and we danced the night away.

I go to gigs alot but it was just magical to dance and listen to the music without any prior knowledge of the band. Since I had already had a couple of drinks at this point I was feeling more confident and I just danced like an idiot but even then, it was amazing to just feel the life and rhythm if the music and not care about how all these middle aged women that were dancing alot better than me. I was there, in the moment, loving life.

Following the gig, we ended up hanging out with the support band, who were lovely guys (they even gave me free tickets to their next headline show, which is kinda crazy) and we drunkenly spoke about politics and music. I guess what am I am trying to say is, the spontaneous decision we made to go to this gig and not just get really drunk (as we had planned to do) but dance the night away allowed me to have one of the best nights I have had in a long time. 

Another thing, I have found out about being spontaneous is that it is so much fun. For me, it feels like I am stepping into a dark void, with no idea where it will end or what will happen to me. It is terrifying but also magical. There are endless possibilities that come from being spontaneous and it is time to take that jump and do something spontaneous.